tuesday
decided. actually decided — not the fake deciding i've been doing for months, where i decide and then reopen the decision like a fridge i'm hoping restocked itself. i'm not renewing Wend. the contract ends in august and i am letting it end. wrote the whole thing out: Why I'm quitting · Quitting Wend.
which means the only thing left between me and this being real is telling Mama. she lands in three weeks. she still thinks i have the stable client and the sensible plan. she's going to sit in my Graça kitchen and ask about "the app job" and i need to have already told her by then, because finding out in person, at my own table, would be so much worse. Mama · The call I haven't made.
good news to balance the dread: two more items off the Vertical Slice Checklist, and Théo's lighthouse interior pass came in and it's exactly right — cold and kind, Halina's kitchen with a lamp on. Palette & Mood.
Marginalia's still late. it can stay late. one crisis at a time.
- call mama (tomorrow. i mean it. writing it big so tomorrow-me has to look at it.)
- ask Théo for the lighthouse interior pass
- send the wayfinding synthesis
- finalize the "not renewing" note to the client